I'm at the edge of my emotions

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Nothing is worse than knowing you're holding back

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I could be all that you needed if you let me try

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I'm in love and I'm terrified

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I only said it cause I mean it
I only mean it cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever I'm without you

She said "I've gotta be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishing round here."
And I said "you must be mistaken,
I'm not fooling... this feeling is real"
She said "you gotta be crazy,
What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?
"You've got wits, you've got looks,
You've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong.
All wrong.
But you got me...

I'll be true, I'll be useful...
I'll be cavalier...I'll be yours my dear.
And I'll belong to you...
If you'll just let me through.
This is easy as lovers go,
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
And this is wonderful as loving goes,
This is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

And I said "I've gotta be honest
I've been waiting for you all my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane,
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.
You've got wits... you've got looks,
You've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

Tonight.
Tonight.
But you've got me...

I'll be true, I'll be useful...
I'll be cavalier...I'll be yours my dear.
And I'll belong to you...
If you'll just let me through.
This is easy as lovers go,
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
And this is wonderful as loving goes,
This is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
This is easy as lovers go,
So don't complicate it by hesitating.

And this is wonderful as loving goes,
This is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

take care nic,you will always special to me,i really hope you are happy with cairan because i wouldnt want you to be anything else,maybe this just isnt out time,but who knows.dont be a stranger.and anytime you need to talk,give us a email and we can talk on skype.let us know if youi get your promotion and any other event in your life,love chris

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I think I died a little.

Well. What can I say. I fucked it up again. Royally.

I'm not sure why I always seem to ruin a good thing. Is it because I always want something I could never have? Or is it the fear that the person I am with will never want to stay with me and find someone better - therefore unconsciously making me 'leave' first so I won't have to get hurt.

God. I think I need another holiday.

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Of course, I did.

I meant what I said, I spent the best times of my life with you.

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Just Say Yes (Snow Patrol) --- oh how apt!

I'm running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won't be ok and I won't pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand
Please take my hand
Please take my hand

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

It's so simple and you know it is
You know it is, yeah
We can't be to and fro like this
All our lives
You're the only way to me
The path is clear
What do I have to say to you
For God's sake, dear
For God's sake, dear
For God's sake, dear
For God's sake, dear
For God's sake, dear

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz I'm aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt
This was all I wanted, all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in